10yrs ago I lost my utterly beloved Mum. Not everyone can say they had a great relationship with their Mum but I truly honestly did, she literally was my best friend and taught me everything I know about the life I live now. Many of you will know that it was her influence that pointed me in the direction of cakes but alas she never got to see my talents as I only started baking after she was gone to fill the gaps her cakes left.
|My christening cake|
Losing a parent is a completely surreal experience. As a child, your Mum is the one person who always stands beside you, the one person you know you can count on. Even when you're making some dubious decision regarding a 'trendy' haircut or new boyfriend, you're internally always comforted by the fact that whilst we might shock our parents, their love for us will never waiver.
|My little family - the original trio|
I honestly never thought I'd make it through a 10days, let alone 10yrs, without her. But I have. I still have random moments when I see something funny and think to text Mum and I still can't bring myself to take her house key off my keychain (shhh, don't tell the owners of that house...).
I miss the way Mum would rub my back when we were just sitting chatting or insist on feeding me a 2nd dinner even though I'd just eaten. I love the way she'd chat to any random person on the street and would literally give her last pennies to a charity box even though she might not have enough money to buy food for the week. My Nana always says that adding love into your food makes it taste better and the love my Mum poured into her cooking was a testament to that.
So what am I trying to say? Well, firstly happy 57th birthday Mum! I made a concerted effort last year that I'd try not to mark the day she died, but rather celebrate her life instead.
And secondly, appreciate what you have whilst you have it. Don't be flippant about all of the amazing things you have around you. Appreciate them, drink them in and if you're lucky enough to have a beloved parent in your life then hold onto them tight. Go and make some amazing memories with them, you never know when they'll be gone.
|6mths before Mum passed away|